
This upset me so much I had to go look immediately to confirm it was a fake message.
I love that @MarsCuriosity account.
(Source: daydreamntn)
Breakup season again. Maybe it’s a spring thing. Been telling a few people this in the last week.
So here it is for anyone else who needs to snap the hell out of it.
Get good at moving on. Fast. Then get really good at it.
Overcoming romantic disappointment truly is one of the most important strengths you can develop as an adult. I’m still working it out each time, but I look at people who’ve been with the same person their whole lives and think “I could bench press you AND your high school sweetheart, motherfucker.”
I like this.
I like this, too.
Wonderful. I want to memorize this.
This is amazing.
(Source: finnualabutler)
For awhile each of the days counted towards something worse and worse. I both had it happen and let it happen to me. The lights will go on, with or without you, the lights never go away. Countless others ensure so, their livelihood depends on it. Whether I wished those to go away or otherwise.
But I also firmly and fully believe we each take away exactly what we need from everything. Not an ounce more, not a sliver less, and not a moment too late nor a bit too soon. You take away exactly what you need to say enough.
So I got full, one day, of all the wishing. Got full of the darkness. Got full of the nothing. And I set about change.
They tell you need drugs, they tell you it’s therapy, they tell you it’s the environment, they tell you it’s a lot of things because it is really a lot of things. But the easiest isn’t just a pill, the easiest is just change.
Fuck the inability to change, change.
Then take that change and maintain, that’s the hardest. Maintain. Every single day. And no drugs man ever made can help you keep change, it is rather a constant reminder of the fight you have to commit every single day to count towards something good.
But do it once, do it twice, do it three times, then four, and never stop. And one day you wake up and look at the mirror and find someone not you. Someone that’s okay. And then those lights are instead magical, enough to invite you out again.
That’s what depression feels like. And it’s sad but if you don’t have it, it’s sadder that you never get an opportunity to change for the better. You don’t push, you don’t get better. Life is only a bit more interesting when you make an effort.
(Source: joshuawoods)
| — | Rainer Maria Rilke (via 24freedinners) (Source: larmoyante) |
In my mind The Stupidity of New York’s Long, Expensive and Ongoing War on Graffiti and How The Legal System Failed Aaron Swartz seem closely related.
Both seem to ultimately be stories about how authorities overreact to subversive cultural movements by artistic, creative youth.
I have no problem believing this. And the whole “war on youth counterculture” thing is extremely relevant to what we’re facing in my own city right now.
| — | Gabrielle Roth (via coketalk) Never. I have never stopped. |
Today’s fresh hell was somewhat expected, but no less devastating. I borked my MacBook doing some cowboy OS upgrade shit that will probably not be fixable, but at least I had backed up the majority of my files before doing it, and a very robust Dropbox folder of my most important stuff. Nonetheless, it sucks deeply and thoroughly, the only saving grace being the elderly iPhone I acquired recently (which I have yet to turn into a phone… because I was waiting on the OS upgrade to my MacBook that I couldn’t perform with my busted DVD drive) and the “move it and the screen goes black” PC laptop my roommate has graciously loaned me.
I had a big day today (more in subsequent posts) which took my mind well off things, so I’m just going to stay cool for now and focus on the positive.
Wednesday, July 18, is the 20th anniversary of our marriage. How can I begin to tell you about Chaz? She fills my horizon, she is the great fact of my life, she has my love, she saved me from the fate of living out my life alone, which is where I seemed to be heading. If my cancer had come, and it would have, and Chaz had not been there with me, I can imagine a descent into lonely decrepitude. I was very sick. I might have vegetated in hopelessness. This woman never lost her love, and when it was necessary she forced me to want to live. She was always there believing I could do it, and her love was like a wind forcing me back from the grave.
I knew my roasting pork would bring you luck!
| — | Dizzy Gillespie, quoted in Dread Diary. (via mills) |
This song, the box of tissues on my lap, this joint dangling from my lips and the shot of whiskey I’m about to pour are pretty much all that’s keeping me together at the moment.
Abide with me here awhile, dudes, and once we get through the next week or so, I’ll be just fine.