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Granny loooooooved Lawrence Welk. I remember when we visited when I was little, being all washed up on bath night (after Disney, obvs) and coming out into the TV room in my jammies to watch it with her. I’ll never forget the closing theme… 
“Good night, sleep tight and pleasant dreams to you / Here’s a wish, and a prayer that every dream comes true / And now, til we meet again…. Adios, au revoir, auf wiedersehn… GOOD NIGHT!”

Granny loooooooved Lawrence Welk. I remember when we visited when I was little, being all washed up on bath night (after Disney, obvs) and coming out into the TV room in my jammies to watch it with her. I’ll never forget the closing theme… 

“Good night, sleep tight and pleasant dreams to you / Here’s a wish, and a prayer that every dream comes true / And now, til we meet again…. Adios, au revoir, auf wiedersehn… GOOD NIGHT!”

Joan Blair (née Haggith) [1926 - 2013], taken in 1943 in London, when she was in the Women’s Land Army. #gramstagram #rip #heroine

Joan Blair (née Haggith) [1926 - 2013], taken in 1943 in London, when she was in the Women’s Land Army. #gramstagram #rip #heroine

My grandmother passed peacefully this morning just before 8 am.
This Mother’s Day, we celebrate our matriarch… the lioness of our pride.
RIP Joan Maud Haggith Blair

My grandmother passed peacefully this morning just before 8 am.

This Mother’s Day, we celebrate our matriarch… the lioness of our pride.

RIP Joan Maud Haggith Blair

My hotel was around the corner from the waterfront memorial walk, so I got to see my fave uncle again. #rip (at Seawall)

My hotel was around the corner from the waterfront memorial walk, so I got to see my fave uncle again. #rip (at Seawall)

RIP, The Man They Called Reveen. #NEVA4GET

RIP, The Man They Called Reveen. #NEVA4GET

nprfreshair:

Siskel & Ebert — Taxi Driver. Split vote. Roger thought it was a great character study, Gene thought it was too lurid and violent.

Roger Ebert wrote the first film review that Martin Scorsese ever received—for 1967’s I Call First, later renamed Who’s That Knocking at My Door.

I had been a film critic for seven months when I saw his first film, in 1967. It was titled I Call First, later changed to Who’s That Knocking at My Door. I saw it in “the submarine”—the long, low, narrow, dark screening room knocked together out of pasteboard by the Chicago International Film Festival. I was twenty-five. The festival’s founder, Michael Kutza, was under thirty. Everything was still at the beginning. This film had a quality that sent tingles up my arms. It felt made out of my dreams and guilts. I consider him the most gifted director of his generation, and have joked that I will never stop writing film reviews until he stops making films. —Roger Ebert, an excerpt from Scorsese by Ebert

Martin Scorsese on the passing of Roger Ebert:

“The death of Roger Ebert is an incalculable loss for movie culture and for film criticism. And it’s a loss for me personally. Roger was always supportive, he was always right there for me when I needed it most, when it really counted – at the very beginning, when every word of encouragement was precious; and then again, when I was at the lowest ebb of my career, there he was, just as encouraging, just as warmly supportive. There was a professional distance between us, but then I could talk to him much more freely than I could to other critics. Really, Roger was my friend. It’s that simple. Few people I’ve known in my life loved or cared as much about movies. I know that’s what kept him going in those last years – his life-or-death passion for movies, and his wonderful wife, Chaz. We all knew that this moment was coming, but that doesn’t make the loss any less wrenching. I’ll miss him — my dear friend, Roger Ebert.” —Martin Scorsese, April 4, 2013

Thought I was all out of tears, but surprise! I’m not.

(Source: cinephilearchive)

Lest we forget, Siskel was a regular at the Playboy Mansion back in the day. I think he’s got the welcome party covered.
Below is from the original show. Look at these two motherfuckers about to change the landscape of film criticism forever.

Lest we forget, Siskel was a regular at the Playboy Mansion back in the day. I think he’s got the welcome party covered.

Below is from the original show. Look at these two motherfuckers about to change the landscape of film criticism forever.

ericmortensen:

Roger Ebert:

Wednesday, July 18, [2012] is the 20th anniversary of our marriage. How can I begin to tell you about Chaz? She fills my horizon, she is the great fact of my life, she has my love, she saved me from the fate of living out my life alone, which is where I seemed to be heading. If my cancer had come, and it would have, and Chaz had not been there with me, I can imagine a descent into lonely decrepitude. I was very sick. I might have vegetated in hopelessness. This woman never lost her love, and when it was necessary she forced me to want to live. She was always there believing I could do it, and her love was like a wind forcing me back from the grave.


This is what I was referring to when I said it was maybe the most romantic thing I’ve ever read (thanks, OP Eric - Tumblr was being persnickety about letting me reblog myself). I can only imagine how incredible his love letters to her must have been.

ericmortensen:

Roger Ebert:

Wednesday, July 18, [2012] is the 20th anniversary of our marriage. How can I begin to tell you about Chaz? She fills my horizon, she is the great fact of my life, she has my love, she saved me from the fate of living out my life alone, which is where I seemed to be heading. If my cancer had come, and it would have, and Chaz had not been there with me, I can imagine a descent into lonely decrepitude. I was very sick. I might have vegetated in hopelessness. This woman never lost her love, and when it was necessary she forced me to want to live. She was always there believing I could do it, and her love was like a wind forcing me back from the grave.

This is what I was referring to when I said it was maybe the most romantic thing I’ve ever read (thanks, OP Eric - Tumblr was being persnickety about letting me reblog myself). I can only imagine how incredible his love letters to her must have been.

newspeedwayboogie:

“At this point in my life in addition to writing about movies, I may write about what it’s like to cope with health challenges and the limitations they can force upon you. It really stinks that the cancer has returned and that I have spent too many days in the hospital. So on bad days I may write about the vulnerability that accompanies illness. On good days, I may wax ecstatic about a movie so good it transports me beyond illness.”

I love the Van Gogh quote that Ebert used to close the Salon piece I just linked, entitled “I Do Not Fear Death”:

“Looking at the stars always makes me dream, as simply as I dream over the black dots representing towns and villages on a map.
Why, I ask myself, shouldn’t the shining dots of the sky be as accessible as the black dots on the map of France? Just as we take a train to get to Tarascon or Rouen, we take death to reach a star. We cannot get to a star while we are alive any more than we can take the train when we are dead. So to me it seems possible that cholera, tuberculosis and cancer are the celestial means of locomotion. Just as steamboats, buses and railways are the terrestrial means.
To die quietly of old age would be to go there on foot.”

Have a safe trip, Roger. 

newspeedwayboogie:

“At this point in my life in addition to writing about movies, I may write about what it’s like to cope with health challenges and the limitations they can force upon you. It really stinks that the cancer has returned and that I have spent too many days in the hospital. So on bad days I may write about the vulnerability that accompanies illness. On good days, I may wax ecstatic about a movie so good it transports me beyond illness.”

I love the Van Gogh quote that Ebert used to close the Salon piece I just linked, entitled “I Do Not Fear Death”:

Looking at the stars always makes me dream, as simply as I dream over the black dots representing towns and villages on a map.

Why, I ask myself, shouldn’t the shining dots of the sky be as accessible as the black dots on the map of France? Just as we take a train to get to Tarascon or Rouen, we take death to reach a star. We cannot get to a star while we are alive any more than we can take the train when we are dead. So to me it seems possible that cholera, tuberculosis and cancer are the celestial means of locomotion. Just as steamboats, buses and railways are the terrestrial means.

To die quietly of old age would be to go there on foot.”

Have a safe trip, Roger. 

(Source: vastandgrand)

alisonagosti:

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I will pass away sooner than most people who read this, but that doesn’t shake my sense of wonder and joy

The ending to this packs a real wallop. Hankies at the ready, y’all. 

bbook:

Legendary Film Critic Roger Ebert Has Passed Away

Speaking of love, the post he wrote on his 20th anniversary might be the most romantic thing I’ve ever read. To have loved like Roger & Chaz Ebert would be a pretty beautiful thing in one’s life.
RIP to a man I admired on so many levels. He made us understand ourselves better through film criticism, and we were only just beginning to know the depths of his gifts as a writer and humanist.

bbook:

Legendary Film Critic Roger Ebert Has Passed Away

Speaking of love, the post he wrote on his 20th anniversary might be the most romantic thing I’ve ever read. To have loved like Roger & Chaz Ebert would be a pretty beautiful thing in one’s life.

RIP to a man I admired on so many levels. He made us understand ourselves better through film criticism, and we were only just beginning to know the depths of his gifts as a writer and humanist.

peterfeld:

An unforgettable description of the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire, which killed 146 garment workers 102 years ago today, mostly young women, led the New York Times Magazine’s “The Lives They Lived” issue on December 30, 2001. Three months after 9/11, this essay by Elizabeth McCracken memorialized Rose Freedman, the last survivor of the fire, who had died at 107 earlier in the year.

Surely some of the early jumpers believed they were saving themselves: they flung their bodies into blankets and jackets held taut by strangers, into fire safety nets once the fire department arrived, which ripped in half and flung their contents to the ground. Some women died trying to leap into the arms of firemen, who stood at the tops of ladders that, fully extended, reached only to the sixth floor.
People on the ground begged women not to jump. They begged as one woman waved a white handkerchief and then leapt; her flaming dress caught on a wire and she hung there till she burned free. They begged as a man helped a series of women off the ledge with courtesy, as if the air itself was an elevator car, before he kissed the last, let her fall and followed.
I do not want to die in a fire. I do not want to die so far from the earth. I am dying, and I believe I can fly.
Perhaps these women realized they could not save their lives. They knew that those who stayed inside the building would be incinerated beyond recognition. They may have thought that it would be a comfort to their families to have something to identify and then bury.


My stepsister told me about this during our first visit to New York in the ’90s, and accounts like this one were so moving, we went to find it (it’s now the Brown Building on the NYU campus) and pay our respects.

peterfeld:

An unforgettable description of the Triangle Shirtwaist Factory fire, which killed 146 garment workers 102 years ago today, mostly young women, led the New York Times Magazine’s “The Lives They Lived” issue on December 30, 2001. Three months after 9/11, this essay by Elizabeth McCracken memorialized Rose Freedman, the last survivor of the fire, who had died at 107 earlier in the year.

Surely some of the early jumpers believed they were saving themselves: they flung their bodies into blankets and jackets held taut by strangers, into fire safety nets once the fire department arrived, which ripped in half and flung their contents to the ground. Some women died trying to leap into the arms of firemen, who stood at the tops of ladders that, fully extended, reached only to the sixth floor.

People on the ground begged women not to jump. They begged as one woman waved a white handkerchief and then leapt; her flaming dress caught on a wire and she hung there till she burned free. They begged as a man helped a series of women off the ledge with courtesy, as if the air itself was an elevator car, before he kissed the last, let her fall and followed.

I do not want to die in a fire. I do not want to die so far from the earth. I am dying, and I believe I can fly.

Perhaps these women realized they could not save their lives. They knew that those who stayed inside the building would be incinerated beyond recognition. They may have thought that it would be a comfort to their families to have something to identify and then bury.

My stepsister told me about this during our first visit to New York in the ’90s, and accounts like this one were so moving, we went to find it (it’s now the Brown Building on the NYU campus) and pay our respects.

My mother’s final email

Happy 2007,
As usual, my End of the Year celebration was off the scale in terms of normality.
After we became statistics in the Dec. 21st UK headline “40,000 airline passengers stranded by fog”, Patrick cleverly sidestepped the hopeless alternatives offered by Not-so-Easyjet and discovered an obscure chartercompany with 2 seats left on the next day’s flight to Marrakech.
The walled Saharan city lived up to it’s billing as exotic, friendly, safe, unique, colourful and peppered with delightful adventures at every turn.
And turns there were - starting with the maze of mysterious, dark alleyways that led to our incredible rabbit-warren styled guest house, the home of the former German Ambassador (See The Blue House atwww.riadelcadi.com).With a dozen fresh roses delivered to us as VIP guests every day, breakfast served on our private roof terrace under our own sheik-like tent overlooked by the snow-capped Atlas Mountains, and staff who made us feel as if we were family, we quickly got used to being treated like royalty.
Patrick partook of the hammam steam room scrub and massage while I sat under an orange tree and put my feet up. We spent hours wandering among the distinctively dressed Berbers and Bedouins in the medina and the souks, observing a world of fascinating folks. Patrick even managed to get invited to dinner at the home of one of the jewellery craftsmen whose work he admired greatly.
Every morning while he caught up on his sleep or his sun tanning, I slipped out early to explore and take photos of donkey carts laden with oranges, the tempting windows of French pastry shops, the old men squatted on the ground selling mint tea to dozens of customers - from the same three tiny glasses, wool dyers, rug sellers, the mosques and minarets, and a dentist advertising his trade by sitting in front of a rug piled high with teeth he had pulled.. it was a people-watcher’s paradise.
At night we would meet up to dine in front of the open fire in our our riad or wander over to the grand square where we sat on the terrace of a restaurant that overlooked the action.After dark the entertainment was amazing - and Patrick’s command of the French language impressed quite a few single female tourists from other lands.
we were gob-smacked by dozens of performing monkeys, acrobats, belly dancers, snake charmers, story-tellers, fire eaters, and all sights were free to behold!
I loved every smell and sound (even the call to prayer becomes hauntingly unforgettable), taste and image.
The food was surprisingly mild and diverse with plenty of unique dishes I am now keen to try at home. Days were sunny at about 22 degrees while nights were crisp and so cold I had to layer on every top I had packed in order to keep warm. Brrr - I forgot about cold desert nights!
Unfortunately on Christmas Eve I was struck down with pain so severe I
had to be helped back to the hotel.We rang the Leukemia Helpline and they told me to get home asap - that it sounded like another splenic infarction (similar to a heart attack of the spleen).I spent Christmas Day in tears on the roof terrace while Patrick tried desperately to get me a flight.On Boxing Day I said goodbye to my desert paradise.I was also sorry I had to cancel the brief visit I had planned to make with Uncle Ron en route home, but needed to go straight to hospital from the airport.
So here I am again on Ward 10 - the pain management team are struggling to get the discomfort under control enough for me to go home - hopefully by the weekend.
Both of us are tanned, and since I insisted Patrick stay on and finish his holiday while I was mostly comatose in hospital, our hearts and minds are brimful of memories.
I know my stay was cut short, but I am on the mend again and really grateful I had that brief taste of magic inMarrakech.I am determined to go back again.
If you fancy a gander at a few of my photos, let me know and I’ll upload a couple as soon as I get home from hospital, perhaps as soon as this weekend, if my pain management devices produce the desired results.
All the best for the coming year.Wishing you every happiness, good health and a host of exciting adventures…
remember… life is short, so live it wide.
Sandy
This was written in the first week of January, 2007, shortly before she died after a wonderful Moroccan holiday with my brother Patrick.
That closing line - “life is short, so live it wide” - is now inscribed on her headstone.

Today would have been my mother’s 68th birthday. 
Happy birthday, mummy! I love you!

Today would have been my mother’s 68th birthday. 

Happy birthday, mummy! I love you!

I mean… at least he wasn’t Gargamel, right?

I mean… at least he wasn’t Gargamel, right?

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